another 9 days to end year 2010

another 9 days to end year 2010...
i was thinking,what hav i done through out this whole year...??!!
good question for myself...!!time for me to really think of it...!!
how bout u guys??hav u achieve what u hav planned during the beggining of this year?
next week is my final exam for my second semester...
and this is the last week for me to fight for my final exam!!somehow,i dun really hav the mood to study and do my revision yet im very scare that i will fail...
what i aim for this time exam is juz to pass all the subjects so that i can proceed to my degree course as soon as i can...
today studied 3 chapters...later still hav to continue~~
how good if i can juz express and voice out what is actually im thinking...but,still in the process of learning...*emotion control*
wow~~long long long time not sharing photos in my blog luu...went to start live concert last week with my uni's friends...took some photos,and plan to share some of it in this post...have a look...

u guys are awesome...!!

power rangers...haha~~

nernnh face~~

^^
me and wen yi...
me and ce chen...
me and felicia...

alwyn and me...~~

~eRiC mOo~

外面 又下起连绵细雨

外面 又下起了连绵细雨

这种的天气 让人其实觉得还蛮舒服

很有懒懒散散的感觉

不想翻开书来温习

却很想躺在床上

暂时不想再想 也不想再理任何东西

好好歇一歇 好好的睡一睡

好好的休息

有些东西发生了 就让它吧

反正也做不了什么

一些东西 知道就好 没有必要把它说出来

说出来了 也改变不了什么

做回自己该做的 扮回自己该扮的

说起来就容易 难

却难在说服自己

～eRiC mOo～

walking alone in the shopping mall...seriously,the feel is not that bad!!

walking alone in the shopping mall,seriously,the feel is not bad...
can just walk to any where,no ppl will kacau u...
walk until tired,can just sit down,and try to look around...
everyone is like very busy,walking here and there!!
but dun knw what they are busying actually...even myself!!
alot of things came to my brain when i was walking in the shopping mall...
haizz...dun knw le!!dun feel like doing anything...coz i dun even knw what i can do??!!i am just sooo helpless...!!to those dissapointment...i really speechless...!!
because i can only remain DIAM...!!that's all!!
what else can i do??the only way is just let it be...
somehow,it is very difficult to convince ourseleves....
how good if i really dun care or even NO FEEL bout that!!

i am just so damn stress...stress bout studies,stress bout final exams!!
christmas is coming,a lot of things have to be settled...!!
everyone is having christmas mood...but i can only have exam mood!!
what the...!!
how good if i can go kampar now...
how good if i can start my next semester at kampar...!!
guess its a good try for me...!!
i hate exams,i hate assignments...
feel like going to my degree course as fast as i can...!!just scare that i will fail in this semester!!yarr..i wanna start my degree course as fast as i can,sooo...
i cannot FAIL...!!

christmas...CNY...fast fast come!!

又有一段日子上来了...
时间过得好快，现在已经是12月了!!回想起去年的的今天...
真的，很多的回忆都会出现在我头脑里!!
让我分享下吧!!去年的今天，应该还考着spm,那时候的心情其实还蛮期待的，
因为就快考完试，圣诞节快到，新年又快到...
那一种的心情，挺不错!!
考完时候，到处跟朋友到处游荡，又有圣诞气氛...
尤其是靠近新年的前几个礼拜...
真的很享受那时候的心情...去购买MY FM贺岁专辑!!现在听会那些新年歌时，
那种的感觉更加强烈...!!真怀念..!!
想起来，自己都会笑起来..!!hahaha...
想起那时做工的日子,都几不错一下下的...
今年都不懂怎样过的咯...

今年比起去年，相差真的很大!!既然在圣诞后的两天考试!!@#@$#@#$%#$^%%&(#
怎样enjoy啊??抱着书enjoy咯...!!lol...
sienzz 到...!!
无论怎样，我还是很期待圣诞节的来临!!
农历新年，更加不用说咯...
我现在已经开始听新年歌了...haha~~

~eRiC mOo~

i am really tired!

if there is really a choice...
if give me a one last chance...
i still will say....i choose to leave!!
i still will say....i rather dun knw anything!!
when only i can finish up this 'time period'?!
im tired of it...
no more energy to continue...
i wanna rest....
can i?
im really tired....

~eRiC mOo~

有时就钟无艳 唔事就夏迎春

‘有事就钟无艳 唔事就夏迎春’

这句话 相信大家都熟悉吧

这句话 听起来

其实还蛮现实的

应该说 这个世界就是那么现实的

付出的 不一定会得到应有的回报

当然 我不是说 也不是在强调 一定要得到任何的回报

只是有时候会觉得有少少的心淡

有少少看透

世界就是那么现实吗?答案是。。。。是

很有对不起的感觉

累的感觉却还在

既然改变不了 不如尝试去接受

有时后就是骗不了自己

说服自己 比说服别人来的难

~eRiC mOo~

things getting better..?

things getting better??well..initially i felt that it is getting better...
but when i try to think deeper...
i dun really knw whether it is getting better or not!!
maybe its juz a way to convince myself that things are getting better...
when i think deeper and deeper again...
am i pretending?pretending that everything is is running very smooth...
so that i will feel that it is getting better...!!
well...i knw that self control is very important...
and this is what im doing everyday!!SELF CONTROL
some how...if u ask me,am i pretending??
lol...i dun even knw am i pretending!!??
or maybe i juz get use to it?treat this as so call 'normal' already?
there must be some lessons that im gonna learn...
but...what are the lessons??i cant guess it...
are these lessons going to affect my future lifez?
some how,i can feel it...it can affect my future life!
maybe this is juz the period for me to go through...
but its kinda suffer...
juz forcing myself go step by step...
guess...this is only what i can do...!!
dun continue to act like this...'drawing' and making yr own face dirty only!!
i mean someone...

~eRiC mOo~

weird

why everything seems like changing?
what happened??what happened to the whole situation??
i really dun knw what to say...
i juz feel like everything is going to be weird from day to day...
situations becoming weird...
feelings becoming weird...
its totally different from the beggining...
and i wanna say...
all this weird things are juz very damn freaking weird!!
who can actually understand my feelings now??!!
its quite suffer for me....
tried to ignore everything...
tried to dun think bout that...
but sometimes human juz cannot lie to their own's feeling...
is this mean that everything has comes to an end...
juz wonder why things can changed in a very short time period??!!
or it juz become a memories and stop here??!!
it can be memories but pls dun stop here...
i juz hope that it can continue to go on...so that all these can be my 'history'...

some how...i feel very unfair...!!
some how...i feel very sienzz...!!
some how...i feel very fed up...!!
some how...i feel very tired...!!
some how...i feel like stop entertaining...!!
some how...i feel that there is nothing happens from the beggining...!!
some how...i feel like leaving..!!

there are lots of questions in my brain now...!!
i did something wrong??!!
what makes this happened?

if i can choose...
i will choose that there is nothing happens in the pass...

if i can choose...
i rather choose to dun knw anything and everything...

if i can choose...
i will choose to leave now...

GOD,lead me and show me the way...!!

~eRiC mOo~

无形的痛

无形的手

拿着

无形的刀

插入心里头

那种内心的痛

那种内心的伤

那种内心的疼

那种无形的痛

那种无形的伤

那种无形的疼

真的 真的

很痛

这种痛 伤 疼

真的痛到

无法形容

有人能了解吗

有人能帮我吗

我

又能做什么

又能改变什么

让我麻木吧

让我感觉不到感觉吧

让我吧

~eRiC mOo~

不说 不问 不听 不闻 不做 不理 不管 不想 不要 不能....行吗？不说 不问 不听 不闻 不做 不理 不管 不想 不要 不能....行吗？

不说 不问 不听 不闻 不做 不理 不管 不想 不要 不能....行吗？

不知道我还能做什么

不知道应该给如何的反应

不知道应该个怎么样的表情

不知道还能怎样伪装

不知道我下一步如何

不知道我应该做什么

不知道 不知道 不知道

不说 不问 不听 不闻 不做 不理 不管 不想 不要 不能....行吗？

随便吧

好的事 永远都不会发生在我的身上

多的是 你不知道的事

~eRiC mOo~

多的是 你不知道的事

another week is gone!!

gosh...can u imagine??

august is going end very soon...

and...we are going celebrate CNY in another few more months!!xD

but before that,is time get ready and prepare for my final exam

which is held on 1st of september...!!

yup...really must add oil in studies,next week is the last week for me to prepare!!

sometimes is really not easy to control our emotions...

things are juz keep on 'pop-ing' into my brain...

trying my best to not to think...coz it really will affect my mood!!

besides,it will also affect me dun feel like doing anything!!

wake up...time to wake up!!

how i wish sometime i can really be crazy!!?

no need to think so much,no need to dream so much,

no need to worry so much...

hmmm...can i??

tiring to entertain this kind of thing...

GOD,can u pls help me to take it out from my lifezz??!!

what can i do much??i want to let go...

even sometimes i dun really knw what i want...!!??

GOD,heal me pls...!!

went to genting highlands to attend MY FM 12th anniversary concert...

this is i was one of the vvip again...manage to get photos with all those

singers and DJs...

~eRiC mOo~

black mood :(

i juz wanna say...

today my mood is totally shit + sucks...

black mood :(

~eRiC mOo~

follow yr feels to do whatever u like...

follow yr feels to do whatever u like....
this is the only way to make yrself to be happy...
what do u think??
do u think this is really a good way??!!
some may says yes...
but for me...i dun think so!!
can u juz do whatever u like and ignore everything?
ignore yr friend's feeling??ignore what ppl wil think of u?
sometimes is really dun knw what to do...
should put down eveything and let it flow by itself...
my final exam is coming soon!!2 more weeks...!!
continue to be emo~

~eRiC mOo~

人的心情。。。

人的心情 很多时候都会有高或有低

其实为什么要这样 也许

就是很多东西都是无法去解释

又有一段时间没来这里了

时间 一天一天的过去

今天 已经是八月了 每一天的经历

就这样演变成了每一天的历史

这一些的历史 过去 就成为过去了

永远都不会再回来

这一些的历史 包含着开心

也包含着不开心 不知道为什么

不开心的 总是比开心的来得多

也许 这就是生活吧

也许 就是有人认为

做人 其实时时刻刻都在伪装

伪装这两个字 我对它无言

有时后也不清楚自己要的是什么

这一整个星期 老实说

真的不是很有心情 因为某些原因

那又如何 生活还是要继续

不想再想这么多也不想问这么多

也许 沉默 真的是金吧

麻木的感觉 永远就是这样

随便吧 这样就这样吧

还是那句 无言

~eRiC mOo~

人的生命 就是那么脆弱 化学

人的生命
就是那么化学
就是那么脆弱
时间
真的过得很快
不轮到你不认同
每一天
都在为生命拼搏
每一天
都在忙进忙出
每一天
都很匆忙要做一件事情
每一天
都很匆忙的完成一件事
都很匆忙的回家
做什么都很匆忙
有享受到那个过程吗
随便吧...
做好自己本分就好...

~eRiC mOo~

july!!omg....

this few weeks is really kinda busy for me!!
lol...exams,assignments all coming together,which one should i do 1st??
my head is going to boom soon...haha~~
basically now everyday also have to do revision...
honestly,actually i'm quite enjoy my uni life!!
but there is only 1 thing i dun really like is.......i hate to wake up sooo early!!
everyday have to wale up at 5.30am..worse than last year la :(
guys...what do u feel now??
i cant believe that now is already july!!july...july...JULY
half year of 2010 is gone...
yarr...half year of 2010 is ALREADY gone...!!
time is really flying now...and i started my uni life is already more than one month!!
lol...and we will be celebrating CNY in another 7 months!!noob~~
will update more when im free!!


~eRiC mOo~

3rd week of utar's life...!!

sorry sorry sorry coz not updating my blog for alomost 2 weeks!!coz recently kinda busy...as u guys know i juz started my university life on last 2 week...need to settle down everything!!and yarr...finally got time to update my blog~
juz feel like wanna type in chinese....so,allow me pls :)

先让我说声不好意思...因为最近比较忙，所以没什么时间Blog!!
开学了三个星期，一切都还好，还正常吧...只不过是觉得大学的生活和中学的生活，
真的...有很大的分别!!还在适应当中...无法否认，还蛮想念中学的日子!!
昨天，和一位中学朋友吃午餐...去了我以前做工的那间餐馆!!
当我一踏入那间餐馆食时，很有一种不懂怎样形容的感觉...
就很有以前在那边做工的感觉!!见回以前一起做工的朋友...
想起和他们一起颠，一起废的日子,其实还蛮开心的...可是已经成为过去了!!
现在想想...时间，真的过的很快!!三个月前和三个月后的变化，真的还蛮大...
给我感觉，每个人都好像在很拼命，为了生活而拼命...
感觉上是不能让自己休息，不能稍微放慢脚步...
稍微放慢脚步，你就会比别人慢一拍，要追...感觉上都很辛苦了!!
其实有时候我在想...有这个必要吗??我也尽量不让自己慢下来...
以前的时代，也许还能...!!无论如何,人总是因该向前看，向前走...只有这样，我们才能继续成长...
开学了三个星期，当然认识了不少朋友!!
相处的都很开心...一起吃，一起颠，一起废!!
这三个星期，真的过的还蛮不错!!希望接下来的日子还能继续那么精彩....
今天...今天，不知道为什么...有少许的没有心情!!
这一天...应该是我在大学里第一天有这种的感觉...超不喜欢这种感觉!!
也许有时候真的无法避免有这种的心情...
赢在起点，输在终点...还是输
输在起点，赢在终点...还是赢
各位...加油吧!!

guess that's all for today!!everyone...good luck and all the best!! :)

~eRiC mOo~

time to get ready for my new journey!!

guess what???!!going to start my new journey in my life soon >>> university life
went to UTAR for orientation from monday to thursday...!!900++ new students were sitting in the hall and just keep listen listen and listen!!kinda boring lo...but,also learned a lot of things la...!!my 1st class wil be starting from next monday at 8am,everyday my class wil start at 8am,wow~~so early!!my class start at 8am,but i hav to wake up at 5.30am...u knw why??coz the traffic from cheras to pj is super super super damn jam...like more teruk than last year when i was studying in secondary school...!!thought uni life no need to study everyday...sudah salah la...!!have to study from monday to friday!!so....so...nothing much i can do!!

during the orientation...
UTARmychoiceconclusion: UTAR my choice

haha...coz nothing to do ma..so just wu liao wu liao lo...!!

all the best to monday la...okok,let me share some words in chinese...

赢在起点 输在终点=输

输在起点 赢在终点=赢

输在起点 那又如何

最重要是别放弃 终有一天 你还是会赢

赢了起点的人 要是继续那么骄傲

终有一天 你一定会输

各位 加油吧

that's all for today!!!cheeeeeeeerssss.... ^..^

~eRiC mOo~

look out point >>> thailand steamboat

okok...finally got time to blog liao!!hmm...let's talk bout last friday!last friday went to look out point with my cell group members after cell group...went there to yum cha and supper...i like the enviroment there...!!

happy birthday to 3 of us...

finished friday...the next day is saturday!!haha...makan thailand steamboat with my church kaki's for our dinner....eat eat eat eat eat eat eat and eat!!wow~~our kaki's like to eat...haha...

eat all u can...
eat eat eat...!!

wow...after eating....
oh yar...just to announce...our big brother mr lim biiang haur finally bought his new nokia handphone...this guy ar,spent alomost 3 hours to buy this phone....

~eRiC mOo~

yeah..i passed my driving test!!

nothing special for this week...
tuesday went to bangi for my driving test,deng...!!
spent alomost 5 hours only 'gao dim' everything!!
and yes...finally i passed it,and now juz waiting for my P license...
hav to wait for 7 to 10 days only can get!!
next week is last week for me to 'enjoy' lu...
because after next week im going to start my foundation class @ utar...
yarr,doing nothing for alomost 2 months,
and now finally...back to sch,but not smk tc anymore!!haha...
can't wait for another week anymore...!!how i wish i can start 2moro...

how if i choose to ignore them??!!haha...can i??
whatever la...as long as i knw thier real 'look' + i cant do anything...
just forget bout it lo...

很多时候不说不问并不代表不知道，选择安静不出声只不过是因为选择了保持沉默，也是因为不想有尴尬的场面出现...也许这也是一种的解决方法!!
不出声也是因为觉得退一步能够海阔天空，请别那么自以为了不起，人的容量度是有时候，是在不同的环境下...是有限的!!

~eRiC mOo~

18岁

今天
是我的生日
是我18岁生日 真想像不到
没怎么庆祝
因为对我来说 庆不庆祝
也不会有什么特别
对我而言
也只不过是一个普通日子一样过
吃 喝 睡 听 闻 摸 讲 坐 站

问我开不开心
老实说 我不知道
没有什么特别要开心
没有感觉就对了

无论如何
还是要感谢所有祝福我的人
无论是通过讯息 面子书 还是面对面
真的 谢谢你们

还要谢谢我教会的一些‘脚’
晚上特地来我家
为我切了一个生日蛋糕
谢谢

不能否认的 我已经18岁了
18岁的生日 就快结束了

来 让我对自己说
生日快乐

我总觉得

我很 一个人

~eRiC mOo~

hello 'MAY'...

1st post for MAY...first of all,i wanna say welcome MAY!!lame~~let's talk bout last week...went back to kampung >>>> ipoh from last friday to sunday...u knw what??!!wow..the traffic is very very super jam...coz labour day ma,banyak orang balik kampung~~we spent almost 3 to reached ipoh...so sienzz juz sitting in the car!!staying there everyday juz eat and eat and eat,play and play and play...sleep and sleep and sleep...!!shuang...!!share some photos here :)

brakfast on saturday...curry mee!!sedap...sedap!!

my leng lui aunty and my sis...
ipoh's coffee...my leng lui aunty's house...
my leng lui aunty and my leng lui mother...
dinner time...makan ikan!!
my grandmother~~
yummy...geng~~

last day >>> sunday!!dim sum for breakfast...

enjoying my dim sum...this one...lagi sedap...!!

char siew pao~~

who is this??my sis lo~~
chu cheong fun~~

came back to KL on sunday night...same thing!!the tracffic is very very super jam...spent 3 hours++ only reached KL...xD~~2 more weeks i guess..then i hav to start my foundation already..wow~~dun knw whether i still can write or not...haha~~hmm...all the best,not only me...everyone...!! ^..^

~eRiC mOo~